Ever make a mistake that just continuously eats away at you? Part of it is because of the backlash you rightfully deserve, but also you let others down. It's really a difficult thing to process, let alone accept. I compare the situation to one of my diving lessons. When entering the water, we always want to ensure we leave nature as it was before we showed up. I know the intent is to not touch or harm the natural beauty, but the ocean is forever changed by my being there. It is the nature of reality.
I've been working on a new television pilot, reworking a script and trying to finish my novel. In other words - editing is not my friend. In fact, editing my novel is my worst enemy. I've only gotten through 40 something pages out of the full-length book - it's slow going. The bigger question is what the heck do you do with all of this crap when you're done? Hopefully, the answer is SELL IT - PRODUCE IT - FILM IT. In my experience, each item has different avenues you can take to try and get your project off the ground.